PROJECT ALEX 02: PATAHLAHATI

Mari, tikamlah jantungku!
Pastikan detaknya tiada
S’bab sakit itu
Sayat lukalukaluka
S’tiap tarikan nafasku.
Enggan lagi ‘tuk rasa.
Hancur kini kedokku;
Cukup sudah purapura.
Bunuh aku…
Lekas!

April 18, 2010
21:13

PROJECT ALEX 02 -The Essence of Heart

Essence of Heart!

Romeo:

Yes Its me..

Again..

Wording out loud in the open

Uttering the voices that can’t be heard by your mind.

To speak loud & clear, to make you hear of what my mind wants to say…

It’s just about this Romeo that need perfection

Life, breath, dream and hope

Not to mention the spirit lies within

To embrace true soul of your piece of heart

Can’t it be a dream in the sun???

Juliet:

Oh, is it you?

No it can’t be…

I swear upon the universe, that this can’t be!

This is, whatever this is, it is not true!

Perhaps, perhaps, I am going mental as the voices become blurry each second…

My heart…

She becomes weak and fragile every time your soft voice linger

Alas, your enduring silence holds me back all this year!

I was there at the corner of your heart,

Wanting, waiting and withering…

And now you dare to utter those cruel words that have kept me in the dark all this time?!

Romeo:

Cruel it is then..

When the soft tender voices that try to embrace thee..

The whole idea is simplicity of heart…I want you to be the beholder of my half soul

But you broke it into pieces of scattered dream..hanging up high

where no hand could reach

What I have is pure yet earnest.

But why I’m bleeding now, being pushed and derelict?

Juliet:

I did not pushed you!

How dare you punish me with those cruel and cold words to me!!

Breaking every inch of my bones, of my heart, of my soul…

I used to linger for your touch, for your voice, for your kiss

But now the ghost inside of me detest you!

Now after years of yearning, you are not the Romeo I hoped for…

Romeo:

Yet even those words..even those last words

I will wait for thee..even deep in my hatred

My sincere heart will remains..loving thee bit by bit

Second each second..drop by drop

Pieces by pieces..

My tender heart is as certain as death

As eternity as the Flame of Syeol

…my love will remain.

6 March 2010

Written by Anddy Steven & Deisha

Alex Theme 02

Here is my new theme.. Inspired by Theater, mask and all of things... I choose this picture as our next theme ^^ ha8

PROJECT NOVENIA 02:

I am a virgin at my darkness spot
everybody is sick! I need some blood!
Hey Vampires! Die, perish, die!

Loosing the touch of life, is having yourself in the middle of the ocean.
You're trapped without any sign of whatsoever, you'll be just you,
and the greatest thing is that, there'll be none of voices except yours!
Having the grudges in life is like being throttled by harsh waves.
You're verbally slapped by some ass-faces, whoppin whores who talk cheap,
they're all cheap, they're just mollusk, they're dependent, they're weak!

I am a virgin at my darkness spot
everybody is God! I need some prick!
Hey Vampires! Die, perish, die!

PROJECT NOVENIA 02 - When I Dream of Blue & Gray

When I dream of Blue & Gray

Ingin kupetik rimanya saat kutatap tiap sudut jiwa di tepian batu itu. Tapi a pa sanggupku hanya seonggok pria hampir tua yang tak menarik apa-apa selain tiap tetes derita di sepanjang hidupnya. Tapi yang patut dipikirkan oleh sang BATU di tengah adalah Pria ini renta karena Semangatnya.

Namun, aku seperti ingin bisu saja hingga tak ucapkan kata-kata. Ingin aku hanya bisa diam saja dan tak gerakkan tiap sel otak ini untuk berhenti berpikir dan tidak meratap.

Namun...biru lautnya terus bangkitkan semangat..hingga bilapun kau tidak menjawabku aku tetap akan menahan setiap segi-segi jiwaku untuk rapatkan di dermagamu.

Mungkin aku sekarang hanya berjalan di Tepi..bermimpi menaruh batuku sendiri di atas hamparan biru yg indah dari dirimu.

Aku sudah ingin duduk saja nikmati sisanya...biar indahnya bersinergi dengan lembutnya membuat tiap hati & mata terpaku. Aku akan tunggu disini...dengan tiap jumput hati.
Walau tiap tanya sering rasuki..tapi hati hampir pasti
Hanya tiap retaknya apakah akan Kau tutupi...


By Anddy Steven
22 March 2010

PROJECT NOVENIA 02 - CURTAIN OF DAYS

The gleaming water greets me that dawn,
Of crystal clear blue horizon ahead..
My somewhat called past just flipped open,
There were pieces of papers in my mind..

Who has arranged them to be in so disorderly manners?
Was it mother earth who silently weeping as I stand upon the soft sand?
Or was it the great Neptune who mercilessly sent the waves crashing to the cliffs in front of me?

I realized, life is not ours to arrange..
Let it find its path..
In the most orderly ways that One can imagine,
To Thee, the mighty ruler of heaven, I submit all..
For I am only a tiny piece of pebbles in Your mountain of rocks,
For You are the beholder of my heart, mind and soul..

The moment I close my curtain of this day in the silent prayers for Your blessings and grace upon us..

Amen..

Novenia - 20.03.2010 - 1.20

PROJECT NOVENIA 02: Falling

Your eyes are the ocean;
And I'm drowned in it.

How can I want so much

something
I know so little of?

Your touch is the wet sand;
And I'm wrapped in it.
How can I miss so much
something
I have never had?

Your lips are the cool breeze;
And I'm swept in it.
How can I reap so much
something
I haven't sown before?

March 3, 2010
19:25 Irish Time ^^